My Descent Dealing With My Past 1

In my late teens, I had no real urge for doing drugs and often turned them down. I did love to drink though. I was my escape. It made me feel happy and I had fun most of the time. It never seemed to be a problem. Just about my 20th birthday, I got into smoking weed. Holding a job for the first time and going out in public caused what I would now consider mild anxiety. This is when I found Marijuana. I really liked this drug it was calming without the horrible parts of my drinking habit. Life was normal for a few years nothing big happened and I functioned normally and was all good. I did smoke a lot but it didn't seem to be an issue. I even got a better job working at a Casino. This is where my downward started.

Shortly after going to work at the casino I was sleeping in the commons are one day waiting for work to start and another employee gave me some coffee with meth in it. After a little back and forth I drank it and was amazed I felt like superman. Although I liked meth it was not my choice of drugs.
After a few weeks, I noticed a woman at work. I'm not sure why but I couldn't take my mind off her and for the first time, I introduced myself to a stranger. This was always something that caused me anxiety but I couldn't pass up the opportunity. The introduction went well and we talked often. I learned she was starting a divorce from a very abusive husband. After an incident at work with her soon-to-be EX, I happen to get the courage to comment the line "You know if you dated me this shit wouldn't happen." It worked and we started seeing each other shortly after that. Although we had lots of drama due to her psycho ex we got along very well.
 

My lifestyle remained fairly consistent for the next several months. we hit a small rough patch (many years later I found out it was due to her having a miscarriage) we got through it Things were good again. We had fun we spent lots of time together. After an argument and a couple of weeks "BREAK," we are good again and she is pregnant. I am excited and she doesn't seem like she is disappointed. Life is good outside of all her Drama with her ex. 

What I believe is our daughter is born and things got weird, I was not called when she went into labor like we had discussed and she seemed to be pushing her drama toward me now. Everything was drawn out and arguing. We spit up for a month or so. She calls me and ask me to stop by after work. I do and we lay on the bed trying to put the baby to sleep. after we talk I tell her I had the baby and she could go take a shower and take a break. Our daughter was sleeping on my chest and I was in heaven. (This is the only time I ever got to hold her) She does her thing and about a half-hour later she comes back and puts the baby on the bed so we can continue talking. Things go well and we MAKE UP. We continue talking and I ask about the babies the last name. It had her last name. I ask why and wanted her to have mine due to me being the father. She tells me there is a very slight possibility it was her ex from our "Break". I told her all we had to do is get the test. I wasn't pissed about it because I slept around too during that time. I pressed this issue and she just shut up. I had to go home and go to bed for work at this time I kiss her and the baby and go home.

VANISHED. I called, stopped by, and tried to contact her for weeks. Finally, her mom says she just got home but doesn't want to talk to you "just give her some time" Time never came she moved a few weeks later. I felt lost and angry. Drug use skyrocketed. I went years High, drunk, or stoned. I would seek out more and more ways to get high and escape my reality. My spiral sped up quickly. "This event haunts me until this day"

I married someone who didn't make me happy making my drug use heavier. Meth use was off the charts and it was used almost daily along with pretty much anything else that would I could get high off of.  We partied and had what felt like a blast at the time, drugs and partying where all I ever thought about.
 
That marriage ended when I stopped my drug use and got better. I found out she was cheating and I put a stop to the drug use and she left because of it. Choosing the life of drugs over me. (This event has a silver lining I will not know about for several years.)

I lived alone for a while but still drank heavily but drug use was gone. I was getting better although slowly.

More later.
 

Trip to Sturgis

I took this picture on August 2nd 2015 at the Sage Creek camp ground in Badlands National Park. We were on our way to Sturgis 75th. We left Omaha NE around 9 AM. We rode Highway 275 through Nebraska about the time we Clearwater Nebraska It started to downpour. After about an hour and a half at a great little cafe with good food waiting for the rain. Once the rain let up we were back on the road and got into Valentine NE. After getting some gas we heading North on 83 until we we got to 44 then turned West into Interior SD where we cruised through Bad Lands National Park. After riding some gravel we found Sage Creek campground. Sage Creek is a free primitive campground in the park. The grounds are simple and nice. a few picnic tables and outhouses. It was a better night sleep than I expected. It was my first long distance ride and 540 miles was a good day and I enjoyed it. We had some breakfast and headed West on 44 though Rapid city. We took our time as we tooled through enjoying the scenery as we passed outside of the city into the open Traffic was a lot lighter than I expected and the ride was great as we headed North on highway 385 into Deadwood. Just as I approached the Lead / Deadwood split my charging system died. after some looking we figured out we didn't have the means to fix it and I was running a shoestring budget and could't afford parts at the rally so we loaded it up in the chase truck and hauled it the last couple miles into Sturgis. Traffic was horrible at this point. We Finally made it to Lamphere campground. We set up camp and I turned in for the night. Morning came and a trip to get  uhaul to get home followed. once the bike was loaded in the Uhaul I parked back at the campground and hoofed it up to Full throttle.

Thank god for Full Throttle It saved my trip. It let me have fun, drink, watch show and see bikes even when I was without my bike. Lots fun. I hope to see the orgional venue return. 

On Tuesday I woke up loaded up my buddies bike so I could bring it back and he could head West to Yellowstone. All in all I had a lot of fun but I need to go bike with the bike functioning. 

A New Riding Season

Well the snow has gone and the spring rains and wind have arrived. Riding season will soon be on us and I am not ready for it. I have a fork seal to fix and a carburetor kit to put in. Top off I need to get some kind of exhaust worked out. Open pipes just don't seem to work well. I just need to get off my ass and get it done.

I have decided to get everything in order and get my motorcycle endorsement and be legal. This will get me out and riding more so I can have something to write in this blog about. I hope to make it to at least one real bike rally and visit some good biker friendly destinations in Western Iowa. I will also put out some props for any good independent bike shops I find. I already have a couple of suggestions for places to visit.

Until Next Time.

A December ride.

Well it was a bit chilly but we managed to get about 5 miles in today. Nothing great but it sure beats watching the bike set.

It got up to about 50 today, so we went for ride to warm the bikes up, and snapped a picture when we stopped at the River.

not much else going on here in South West Iowa but hope to write more soon.

Louie M's Burger Lust

This morning I made my wife wake up and go with me to run some errands. To be nice for making her wake up early on a Saturday I took her out to breakfast at one of her favorite places. I have only been here a few times but it has been fantastic every time.

Louie M's Burger Lust is located at 1718 Vinton Street Omaha Nebraska 68108. Its a nice old brick building with a great staff. If your traveling it's only abut a mile off the Omaha's 13th street exit. Well worth the detour.

Louie M's web site: http://www.louiemsburgerlust.com/index.html

Give them a try you will not be disappointed!

New to Me Harley!

Well after to long of not riding I sold all the partly done projects and opted to buy a running Harley. It's a 1997 Dyna Glide-Convertible.  It is in great shape and unmolested.

The only things missing is the factory quick release bags and windshield. It has some upgrades, pipes are set up as drag pipes with no baffles and K&N filters. It will soon get some Ape hangers, Springer front end, and an open primary! I am sure it will get many many other changes.  I will post updates as I get things done.

New toy!!

Well last week I was givin a 1986 Kawasaki 750 Vulcan. It needs less work than my XS650 bobber and will let me take my time getting the bobber done so I do it the way I like. It will be good to be back on two wheels after so long without a bike. I will try to keep up on this blog when I get riding. I will use it to talk mostly about motorcycle stuff in the Area. Hope someone finds it useful or at least amusing.

Here are a couple pictures of the Vulcan when I brought it home